Breaking It Down

So yesterday I had a breakdown...again! Im so tired of the emotional breakdowns Ive been having lately. Thats two -- count em --two in one month. Thats a little ridiculous. Of course if my hubby was here that wouldnt happen at all. then again hes away because hes doing the Navy thing for us. If it wasnt for my best friend being there with me yesterday and her comforting words and hugs then I would have really been an even bigger mess. Ive been so glad to have my best friend around, but that was part of the reason I had a breakdown too. I was realizing that my time here at home with my friends and family is slowly being narrowed down. Im now 11 days from seeing my hubby again. And then about a month after that I will be moving to a place where I dont know anyone except my husband. I will be in for a huge culture shock. Oy vey! So after having this breakdown and talking about it Im ok for now. We'll see how long this lasts. And thats breaking it down.

Spring

Well spring has sprung or so i think. Its one of those days where i went out with a friend for lunch and now im at home , sittin inside and wishing that i could have something to do outside. maybe ill go sit outside and listen to pandora radio. im just sitting here thinking about my husband and how its now 13 days from his graduation and about 11 days before i fly up to IL to be there for his graduation . im still feeling really nervous about everything cause this is all still foreign to me. the whole military thing i get but its the thought that he will be introducing me to alot of important people but then again i am the most important person in his life, so why should it matter? when i think about it that way then its makes it alittle better and alittle easier. im going to go and impress everyone but most importantly im there for my husband cause hes the one that matters most. so heres to new beginnings. thats what spring is about.

So Happy

So the count down has begun. My hubby is two weeks away from graduation and Im two weeks from being reunited with him. Its about to kill me being away from him for so long but that will be remedied very soon. I cant wait. two weeks; thats how long i have to wait...i can do it...i can wait...

Jury Duty

So Im sitting here in the jury assembly room in the courthouse. Ive been sworn in already as a potential juror but I dont know if Im going to have to sit in on a trial or not. From everything Ive heard most of the time its a waiting game and if by the end of the day you havent been selected to sit on a trial then you can go and you dont have to serve for two more years. Well after the beginning of May it wont matter for me because Im going to be moving up north anyway. Theres three hours left before we are all released from duty. Jury duty is just random selection and all that jazz. Im so looking forward to getting out of here. My head hurts and Im tired. Ready to go home and take something for this headache and go to sleep. But I just have to wait and see what the next three hours bring. Adios for now.

What a Weekend

So after almost having a nervous breakdown because everything seems to be going wrong and because I havent gotten to talk to my husband in almost two weeks, I decided that it was time for get out there and do something. Instead of sitting back and letting opportunites pass me by Im going to go make oppotunities for myself. Ive decided this after much debate and many conversations with a close friend of mine. She told me that I needed to find a hobby or something to occupy my time until its time for me to move. So with that in mind I am going to pursue my passion for photography and Im going to learn how to take better pictures. And maybe somewhere in that time frame I will also figure out how to be a better person and friend.
So with that said some of my posts in the future will include some of my work.

Trying To Find A Place

Well the time for me to move to Great Lakes is almost here. Im here in our hometown trying to find a place for us to live 800 miles away. Armed only with the information that has been sent to me and the internet , I have to try to find a place for us to live for the next 7 months. Im panicking just a little bit. Not the type of panicking that is followed by hyperventilating but it feels like it whenever I think about it. Its so hard not having him here to help me make these big decisions. So I have decided that when I fly up for his graduation next month that I will go apartment hunting. And should I find the right place I will sign the lease and move in the 2nd week of May, with Jonathon of course. Im excited about the move and nervous at the same time. This is a big step for me and for him. He's left everything he knows behind to go learn how to be a sailor and Im going to be leaving everything behind to follow my husband wherever the Navy sends us. So here's to new adventures and here's to trying new food in different cities. All I have to say is " look out Illinois cause here we come!"

Getting Ready To...3 ... 2...1...Do You Really Have To Go?

"Do you really have to go?" The day my husband left for boot camp was a really rough day for us. My husband was leaving for two months and I knew that things were about to be really different around the house without him here. That meant that I would have to grow up. Yikes! The concept still scares me but hey im doin' alright. The day I told him goodbye was the hardest thing ever. I felt like my heart was being yanked out of my chest. Thankfully my dad and grandpa were there or otherwise I would have been a complete wreck and thats not how I wanted him to remember me. So I was able to hold it together until I got in the truck and was driving home. After crying on the way home I was ok until I got home and came into our room. Then I sat down and started crying again. For the first week I was pretty much a mess whenever I thought about him being away from me and about how much I was going to miss him. No for the most part I dont cry as much as I did the first couple of weeks but it's still really hard to be here without him. Waiting for his letters and phone calls makes it a little more bearable but it's still difficult sometimes. Im just glad that the wait is almost over though and that I get to see him again really soon. I remember asking him if he really had to go. I remember him telling me that if there was another way for us to live then he wouldnt go. But sometimes the easiest way is hard at first.

Life Without..

So I'm new to all of this. Blogging , sleeping in my bed each night without my husband , being a Navy wife. Trying to fix things that normally my husband would have taken care of. Crying myself to sleep at night and having no one there to hold me. Fixing relationships that have hit the fan and gone bad. Whoever said being a military wife was easy must not have been one themselves because it's not. I mean the great thing about being a military wife is that you get to travel on the government's dime but it also means there are times when your husband is away. It also means leaving people behind who you love and care about and not knowing when you will see them again. There are some uncertainties about the whole thing but I know for me that the uncertainties are becoming less and less as the certain is becoming more and more within grasp. I miss my husband with all my heart but I know that he is doing all of this for me , for us. There's only a couple more weeks left before he graduates boot camp and then I get to see him again. I can't wait to see him in his uniform and to see how handsome he looks as he is standing there with his head held high. I love my sailor and that's as simple as it gets.