With Time Comes Goodbye

So yet again I had to say goodbye. This time I wasn't the one leaving but a good friend of mine, who I had become close to. I knew her time to leave the base was quickly approaching and I was doing everything to prepare myself for her departure but the time came too quickly for us. It was the hardest thing to say goodbye when I knew it was the last time I woud see her for awhile. I realize that being in a place where people come and go its to be expected but its hard when the person going is a close friend who needs you. And when you know that you can't be there for her, it becomes even more difficult for you to say goodbye. So needless to say , I choked back tears as I was hugging her goodbye. Never thought it would be hard but apparently it was. Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a girl when it comes to my emotions cause it would make things a whole heck of alot easier but at the same time I'm afraid that if I became heartless that would be make unpleasant to everyone. So with that being said, with time comes goodbye. And with goodbye's come joyous reunions.

Yippee!!

My husband graduated from ET "A'' school today. Im so proud of him. I love my sailor. I cant wait to see where the Navy sends us next. Anywhere warm will work for us. I felt an immense sense of pride to be there to see my husband graduate. My heart is swelling with pride and happiness for my husband as he completed the second stage of his schooling and another step in his Navy career. Hoo Yah!

Comings, Goings and Holidays

The past few months here have been extremely interesting. Ive seen friends come and go , as they get orders to move to this part of the country and that part of the country. Ive had friends find out they are expecting their first , second or third child. And Jon and I cant help it but to be envious sometimes. So now we are going through the wringer with blood test and an endocrinologist and this that and the other test to find out why we cant have kids. And its becoming a big headache with this doctor and that doctor and "oh , go give more blood". But all's well that ends well I suppose. I'm just glad that we don't have to pay for any of the tests that are being done. That is the one saving grace about the military as long as you stay within their medical guidelines and so forth and so one. In all of this as well , the one blessing has been Jon. Hes along for the medical ride as the doctors do try to figure out whats going on with me and with him. He hasn't been holding my hand literally but hes been there at almost every doctors appointment in the last few weeks. And I'm thankful that I have such an amazing and loving husband cause without him I would be totally lost and upset. The other saving grace has been our friend that has been giving advice and being supportive of what we are doing. Shes been wanting to know every step of the way what the doctors are saying. And for her support I am grateful and thankful for as well.
The holidays are just around the corner. This is the first year that Jon and I will be on our own. We are really excited about it. I was looking at Christmas trees just last night cause I am that excited about putting it up right after Thanksgiving. And Jon was just as excited about. This has been one crazy year for us. From Jon leaving for boot camp to me moving away from NC...where will we be next? We have no idea but we do know its gonna be good.

How Do You?.....

Im sitting here looking at pictures on facebook and remembering the moments that were captured in those pictures. And yet as Im looking through the pictures Im wondering if there will ever be a way to go back to the days when everything was far less complicated and less painful and less stressful. I mean I know things change and people change and we grow as well as growing apart but will it ever be the same. People come and go from our lives and its the going that makes it hard sometimes. But I keep reminding myself thats the way things are.

Things Lately

So I know its been awhile since I last updated on here. Things lately have been crazy busy for me. Between meeting new people, helping friends move into their house, hanging out with my husband and hanging out with friends old and new alike, I havent had much time to blog.
I most recently got to meet my friend Jamie when my hubby and I helped her move into her place a week ago. And I also just met Tiffanie , whos an awesome mom to her almost one year old and is also a fantastic hostess , as she has opened her gorgeous home up to a few of us wives in the neighborhood. Im excited about meeting other wives as they move here.
We'll see what happens. More later.

Adventures in Babysitting

So im babysitting for a friend of ours whose a single parent. well i have the kids overnight for this week and its been really interesting. its been a test on my patience and now i know how parents the world over feel. and im sure its been really interesting for the kids as well. they are the sweetest kids but with the lack of structure in their lives for the past 8 months its like teaching an old dog new tricks when it comes to rules and stuff. i want to be a good babysitter and make sure these kids are well taken care of and i only hope that im making an impact on their lives. these kids are great and im looking forward to taking care of them for the next several months. it gives me something to do and taking care of kids is something i love anyway so it works out. More adventures to come.

Week 4

So Im here in the great state of IL. I love it here. Everyone Ive met so far has been so nice to me. I mean there have been a couple people that have been rude to me but ive sort of looked past that and just chalked it up to a bad day. We are doing well here. We've had to buy some furniture and we are still in the process of unpacking boxes. Its been a slow process. I figure it will take us awhile to fully unpack everything. The hardest part for me has been the fact that I miss all my friends and the rest of the family back in NC. Ive cried a couple of times because i miss everyone so much sometimes. But its getting easier for me. Being here with Jon makes it all better. Plus im making friends here. I just had a friend move in half a mile from me and shes really cool. So with that I will bid you all adieu for now. Ill write more later.

The Move

Im here in IL with my husband. I love our new house in spite of the leaky roof and ceiling. We have 3 bedrooms , one and half baths and a basement. We are still working on unpacking everything and most of our stuff has gone been moved to the basement until we can find a place for it. The base here is really nice. the weather here has been really weird the past couple of days. I love being here and the people here are so nice to us. I miss my friends back home and my family too but i need to be here away from everyone and Jon and I need to be on our own and we need to stand on our own two feet. We have so much to do and not enough time to do it, it seems. ill write more later.

New Beginnings

So the big day is almost here. My husband should be coming back soon to move me up to IL to be with him. The paperwork is being expedited as quickly as possible to set things in order for he and I to move into military housing. Im just glad he gets to come move me. It will make things alot easier for me and for him. Im just dreading the goodbyes I have to say...so many people that Im close to... i dont want to everyone goodbye but goodbyes are a part of life...this is the first time im actually having to tell my friends goodbye. Usually its the other way around and they are the ones that tell me goodbye. I dont do well with goodbyes. So many people have touched my life...its amazing how you dont realize that someone has had an impact on your life until its either too late or until youre not around them anymore. Goodbye has so many meanings... but until I say goodbye Im ok.

Graduation weekend

So I made it Milwaukee only to find out that I couldnt rent a car so my friend had to come pick me up. After that things got better. My husband graduated bootcamp yesterday and he has 48 hours of leave. He looks so great in his uniform. Im so glad that he made it through bootcamp. In the next few weeks im going to be moving to the great state of IL. Im so excited. Its time to sail towards the horizon.

Yay!

Alright so Im flying out tomorrow to go to be in IL for my husbands graduation on Friday. Im going up two days early so that i can look at places for us to live when i move up there in a couple of weeks. This should all be be very interesting. More updates next week.

Breaking It Down

So yesterday I had a breakdown...again! Im so tired of the emotional breakdowns Ive been having lately. Thats two -- count em --two in one month. Thats a little ridiculous. Of course if my hubby was here that wouldnt happen at all. then again hes away because hes doing the Navy thing for us. If it wasnt for my best friend being there with me yesterday and her comforting words and hugs then I would have really been an even bigger mess. Ive been so glad to have my best friend around, but that was part of the reason I had a breakdown too. I was realizing that my time here at home with my friends and family is slowly being narrowed down. Im now 11 days from seeing my hubby again. And then about a month after that I will be moving to a place where I dont know anyone except my husband. I will be in for a huge culture shock. Oy vey! So after having this breakdown and talking about it Im ok for now. We'll see how long this lasts. And thats breaking it down.

Spring

Well spring has sprung or so i think. Its one of those days where i went out with a friend for lunch and now im at home , sittin inside and wishing that i could have something to do outside. maybe ill go sit outside and listen to pandora radio. im just sitting here thinking about my husband and how its now 13 days from his graduation and about 11 days before i fly up to IL to be there for his graduation . im still feeling really nervous about everything cause this is all still foreign to me. the whole military thing i get but its the thought that he will be introducing me to alot of important people but then again i am the most important person in his life, so why should it matter? when i think about it that way then its makes it alittle better and alittle easier. im going to go and impress everyone but most importantly im there for my husband cause hes the one that matters most. so heres to new beginnings. thats what spring is about.

So Happy

So the count down has begun. My hubby is two weeks away from graduation and Im two weeks from being reunited with him. Its about to kill me being away from him for so long but that will be remedied very soon. I cant wait. two weeks; thats how long i have to wait...i can do it...i can wait...

Jury Duty

So Im sitting here in the jury assembly room in the courthouse. Ive been sworn in already as a potential juror but I dont know if Im going to have to sit in on a trial or not. From everything Ive heard most of the time its a waiting game and if by the end of the day you havent been selected to sit on a trial then you can go and you dont have to serve for two more years. Well after the beginning of May it wont matter for me because Im going to be moving up north anyway. Theres three hours left before we are all released from duty. Jury duty is just random selection and all that jazz. Im so looking forward to getting out of here. My head hurts and Im tired. Ready to go home and take something for this headache and go to sleep. But I just have to wait and see what the next three hours bring. Adios for now.

What a Weekend

So after almost having a nervous breakdown because everything seems to be going wrong and because I havent gotten to talk to my husband in almost two weeks, I decided that it was time for get out there and do something. Instead of sitting back and letting opportunites pass me by Im going to go make oppotunities for myself. Ive decided this after much debate and many conversations with a close friend of mine. She told me that I needed to find a hobby or something to occupy my time until its time for me to move. So with that in mind I am going to pursue my passion for photography and Im going to learn how to take better pictures. And maybe somewhere in that time frame I will also figure out how to be a better person and friend.
So with that said some of my posts in the future will include some of my work.

Trying To Find A Place

Well the time for me to move to Great Lakes is almost here. Im here in our hometown trying to find a place for us to live 800 miles away. Armed only with the information that has been sent to me and the internet , I have to try to find a place for us to live for the next 7 months. Im panicking just a little bit. Not the type of panicking that is followed by hyperventilating but it feels like it whenever I think about it. Its so hard not having him here to help me make these big decisions. So I have decided that when I fly up for his graduation next month that I will go apartment hunting. And should I find the right place I will sign the lease and move in the 2nd week of May, with Jonathon of course. Im excited about the move and nervous at the same time. This is a big step for me and for him. He's left everything he knows behind to go learn how to be a sailor and Im going to be leaving everything behind to follow my husband wherever the Navy sends us. So here's to new adventures and here's to trying new food in different cities. All I have to say is " look out Illinois cause here we come!"

Getting Ready To...3 ... 2...1...Do You Really Have To Go?

"Do you really have to go?" The day my husband left for boot camp was a really rough day for us. My husband was leaving for two months and I knew that things were about to be really different around the house without him here. That meant that I would have to grow up. Yikes! The concept still scares me but hey im doin' alright. The day I told him goodbye was the hardest thing ever. I felt like my heart was being yanked out of my chest. Thankfully my dad and grandpa were there or otherwise I would have been a complete wreck and thats not how I wanted him to remember me. So I was able to hold it together until I got in the truck and was driving home. After crying on the way home I was ok until I got home and came into our room. Then I sat down and started crying again. For the first week I was pretty much a mess whenever I thought about him being away from me and about how much I was going to miss him. No for the most part I dont cry as much as I did the first couple of weeks but it's still really hard to be here without him. Waiting for his letters and phone calls makes it a little more bearable but it's still difficult sometimes. Im just glad that the wait is almost over though and that I get to see him again really soon. I remember asking him if he really had to go. I remember him telling me that if there was another way for us to live then he wouldnt go. But sometimes the easiest way is hard at first.

Life Without..

So I'm new to all of this. Blogging , sleeping in my bed each night without my husband , being a Navy wife. Trying to fix things that normally my husband would have taken care of. Crying myself to sleep at night and having no one there to hold me. Fixing relationships that have hit the fan and gone bad. Whoever said being a military wife was easy must not have been one themselves because it's not. I mean the great thing about being a military wife is that you get to travel on the government's dime but it also means there are times when your husband is away. It also means leaving people behind who you love and care about and not knowing when you will see them again. There are some uncertainties about the whole thing but I know for me that the uncertainties are becoming less and less as the certain is becoming more and more within grasp. I miss my husband with all my heart but I know that he is doing all of this for me , for us. There's only a couple more weeks left before he graduates boot camp and then I get to see him again. I can't wait to see him in his uniform and to see how handsome he looks as he is standing there with his head held high. I love my sailor and that's as simple as it gets.